CASTEISM

 I am a Non Brahmin.  My caste name is Agamudaya Mudaliyar.  If u ask, about this caste, I ll not know how to explain.  I know the name, thats it.  We are allowed to eat Non veg food.  But I am a Vegeterian from Eightth Standard.  Got Inspired by the sentence "Why are u burying Dead Bodies in ur Stomach"
Cateism, I shall now tell u, how casteism had made some scratches in my heart. 
But now, there are no scratches, bcos I have learnt to respect their beliefs.

First, Go to their house, ask for a glass of water, U should not sip the glass, u should hold the glass little far from ur mouth and pour it in ur mouth.  After u keep the glass down, they will spill some water on it, and clean the place where u kept it.

Then, u talk with Brahmin friends, out of curiousity and excitement, u too talk like them.  Some times, u make fun of them for their language.  But, for me I literally copied the way, they spoke, bcos how they talked was really decent and nice for me.  So, I wud talk like a Brahmin, using their Jargon, like ukkum, kaarthale, then many words, I dont remember them now. 

Why?

 Bcos, I was just asked,

 enquired,

 questioned

 "Are u a Brahmin?" 

So many times,

 So many places,

So many persons,

 So many Situations,

  ARE u a Brahmin?

Neenga Nammalavala? 

Neenga Iyera or Iyengara?.

  I would be fair and tall.
  and my language, as theirs, 

so Everytime, I should tell them.  No, I am a Non Brahmin. 

They feel sad and bad that I am a Non Brahmin. 

and I wud also feel some what bad for that.  But, what can I do, Its by Birth, u cannot become a Brahmin by ur choice.  U need a Bharathiyar, to Initiate u  as a Brahmin.


oh! Neenga Nammalava nnu Nennachen, I wud feel inside, "Oh, now they dont like us, like they dont feel that we are one of them" 

I just decided that I should never talk like a Brahmin.  Started talking the language used at home and like other Non Brahmin friends wud talk.  Slowly the question stopped. 

Brahmins have so many functions, so many festivals, so many rituals, I like them.  But for us, no rules,  pray to god, pray to god, thats all.  I like Brahmins, and wud like to take birth in my next visit to this world as a Brahmin. 

Attending Marriages

I have barely and rarely attended Marriages,

I still remember the first marriage in which I got some excitement, It was My latha Akka Marriage, she was clad in Silk Saree, with lot of ornaments, she looked her best, with Big Eyes, I love Big Eyes, Beautiful, As if I am seeing Chelli Amman Eyes, They took us to Chelli Amman Temple, Offered Prayers after the Marriage was over. I like her eyes, some call it Muttai Kannu, but I like large and lengthy eyes, Bcos eyes talk.  She wanted to listen to one song from  the movie Agni Natchathiram - "Ninnukori Varnam "  That is  my Favourite Song Till now and will be forever.

Then I have attended My peripa;s Sons Marriages, He had Six sons, he will come with sweets and Invitation, If he comes to our house, it means he is getting his son married. Otherwise, he wont come at all.  I have cried there in the Marriage hall, nobody scolded me for crying, I wud cry like a Mental case, something wud force me to cry, Particularly, my Appa and Peripa were not in Good terms, they are brothers, thats it.  My father told me that, they dont respect him or consider him as their relative.  The thought of my father being ignored will occupy my mind and I will start crying.  Rarely, In one of the marriages, I felt happy, and I stood in all the photos taken by them, tho I dint know any one of them.  For me Mingling with people is easy, I am an Ice Breaker.  I volunteer more often.  Thats my strength and weakness. 

Then, apart from that, one Muslim Neighbour's Marriage.

Then, in my friend's list, I have attended only two marriages.  One was Hemadurga,her marriage was good not very grand, I love her wedding photo kept in the hall of her House.  At the time of her marriage, I had cleared CA Inter.  I still remember, Saravana Prasad Sir, warning us in the class, "Till u finish CA, dont attend any social functions, ONLY STUDIES" I strictly followed. Hema was an exception bcos she has been my Best Friend.  So, I had to, that too hers was a Love cum Arranged Marriage.

Then, Nalini - hers was a Simple Marriage.  Hers was a Intercaste but Arranged Marriage.

Then, Pavithra, My GMCS friend Marriage, Hers was a Grand Marriage.  Nice One, So Much People, Really So much People.  When I went on the stage to greet her, she said - "Enakku Onnum Theriyadhu, Kalyanamnu solli Nikka vechitaanga" So lucky she is, No Need to worry of being not getting married, Actually It is a Blessing.  In thamizh, they call it "Amaingidhu" that is It happend on its own.  It is a Blessing.

Then, Shri Bharathi, GMCS Friend, Hers was a typical Iyer Kalyanam, I relished the food, so nice it was, with sweets, I love Avial and Paruppu Usili, they prepare.

Then, Our Office colleagues, Sampath Sir Daughter, Good Food, Good Kacheri, RAjendran Sir Daughter, Getti thayiru, and Lots of Rituals, Jain Marriage, then Rajeswari Madam Daughter,-
Good Food, Then, R L Narayanan Sirs Daughter, Lalitha, Lalitha, was sitting like a Child in the Chair.  She had Innocence.  No Laughing, No crying. A Simple Smile.  Banu's Brother in Law Marriage - Muslim one, attended with Dhivya.

One kalyanam I relished was the Marriage of Gods, In Nanganallur,  Sri Narsimhar and Navaneetha Krishnan Temple is there, there they perform Perumal Kalyanam, It was just nice.  So Good.  The rituals, I just enjoyed it,  The Bride Goddess and BRide Groom, played Poo Pandhu, that is Flower Ball, then they exchanged garlands.  It was like a Kondattam.  What they say for Kondattam?  I still try to rewind it in my mind, as to what all I saw there.  Seer Thattu, Paattu, DAnce. mmmmmm so nice.

I dint attend Marriages in my Teen Age,  I had to prove myself in Life, Like, one or the other, there was some fight going in our family.  Relative's Marriage, so many Marriages I have not gone.

I attended my elder Sister Sumathi Kalyanam but left it on half day itself, saying I have school.  I had to study.  After Finishing CA, only I had the guts, Dhairiyam, to attend Marriages,  Till that time, I felt uneasy and insecured to attend Marriages.

Attending Good Marriages are Blessings.  My Blessings has been countable only.  I love the Rituals that are done in Marriages.  Particularly, Hindu Marriages,  I wud remember, the Song "Ragasiyamai Ragasiyamai punnagaithal, enna porulo" From Dum Dum Dum movie, where, Jyothika and Madhavan, get married in all types of Indian Culture that is, Muslims, Christians, Bengalis, Tamil, So nicely picturised.

World is a Stage, We are Actors

Once, I saw in TV, Director Gautham Vasudev Menon, talking about his Movie, Vinnai Thandi Varuvayaa?, Movie, He told that he would just let act Trisha And Simbu as it is, that is,candid, he will explain the situation to them, make them stand near to each other, and just Throw the Dialogues on them.  That is No screen play will be given to them in advance, so that, they can by heart it. It is direct acting, no rehearsals, they have to react to their Dialogues then and there, The Actors told that given the situation, they too did what they could do,.

Likewise, in our life also, u can notice that, God writes the dialogues and is throwing the dialogues on us, we catch the dialogue, which best suits the given situation.  This, I have noticed in my life, Like when I want to give an Impressive answer, I just pray to God and within a second or minute, I get the exact dialogue, that i should recite there. 

One Example, My father worked for Indian Airlines, So we were given Quarters, it was called I A Colony, It was a extended family of all the employees working In Indian Airlines, A closed Surrounding, I just Miss it a Lot.  My childhood was spent there only.  A silent and Secured Place.  I am coming to the Point.  There the Pilot, Air hostess, Flight Assistant, Supervisor, Traffic Assistant, Ground Support Dept staff i,e. my FAther, he worked as a Senior Push Back operator, everybody lived in the given quarters.

In that quarters, one day, One Airhostess named Reshmi, asked me like "Would u join Indian Airlines Limited" , I just wanted to give her the correct answer, and so just prayed God, immediately the answer came in my Tongue, "Dheedi, If God Wishes" and she was so impressed, and just shouted, "What an answer"  "Good one" she said. 

I have seen many of my friends giving out such dialogues, Apt Answers, very apt to the Situation.  God is a Great Dialogue writer.

Bcos of my Constant visiting of God men, and reading books of Spirituality, I have learnt that If u just keep on Chanting God's Name, u can realise that Within U, A Silence Exists, Yes, A Silence, Though, u may be surrouned by Pandemonium, every body shouting around u, u can realise that A Calmness, A Silence is there within u.  I assure, everyone of us, would have realised it, atleast once in our Life time.  That Silence will make us understand that we r mere spectators, and we are watching the situations in our life, when the dialogues appear in our mind, we react aptly with the dialogue.

It is said, that whatever Jesus Christ spoke is still in the Air,  It is True, Hundred percent Truth.  We are just catching the dialgoues that we want to tell from the Air and delivering it.  But we can realise this only after certain Amount of Mind Training, The training could be in this birth or in the Previous Birth. I say Previous Birth, bcos u might see some friends will say, I know this without any Training, means the Training has been given already, now it is just delivery.

Similarly, In Hindu Mythology, It is said that Vedas, are there in the Air, Rishi means the person who is able to See the Thought. that is, he is able to hear the Truth and recite it as a Sentence, Mantra.

World is a Stage, We all are Actors.  30/10/2011 11.37 pm